First Love Dies

What is the story of your first love? It’s an awkward question for every person or for those who had his or her first love with an unhappy memory behind it. I can say that majority had dealt with this unrequited love and had become quite a martyr when it comes to love. Our memory of our first love is undeniably a painful one when one tries to unravel the past.

     First love memory is a heartrending one because we didn't end up being together with that special someone. I had also been a target of one of Cupid’s arrow. I was still a freshman back then when we this role play thing. Our group decided to act out the Love Story song by Taylor Swift and I was chosen to be the girl in the story. I really didn't like the idea of me being the protagonist together with him being my partner.

     There was this part on our act where he knelt and inserted the ring in my finger and I can even remember today how awkward it was that I felt my cheeks burned that moment.  It was followed by the screaming of my classmates because they were fluttered by that gesture he made which was part of our script. From then on our classmates would always tease us. But that time I didn't fell in love with him in spite of all those tease and things my friends told me.

     I thought that I wouldn’t be hit by Cupid’s arrow and that I would be able to defend my heart from it. But I guess I was wrong and by the end of the school year, whenever I see him my heart started to beat fast and I couldn't look at him directly. My feelings continued when we were already sophomores. I always had this thought in mind that whenever one likes somebody, he or she won’t be liked back. And yet, a miracle did happen.

     It was during our intramurals and there was this sound box booth wherein you can request any song. I heard the DJ said that this song was dedicated to Miss Jarah Lucena. Yes that’s me and I was surprised and what was more surprising is that when I heard the song Love Story by Taylor Swift started playing. I had never forgotten how my heart raced that time and how my friends came to me rushing and teasing me. It was then I discovered that he was the one who requested.

     That was one of the happiest moment of my life and I felt like it was a dream come true which every girl had dreamed of. But then sadly, there was this agonizing event that happened which made him fall out of it. I just don’t want to talk about the whole heartbreaking thing that destroyed it. But then I couldn’t forget the moment how it ended and it was when someone texted me on the night before our periodical test, that he don’t like me anymore. Seriously, when I read the text message, my tears were falling and it was uncontrollable.

     See, that love was like a flower. It was a fragile flower that suddenly bloomed out of nowhere. That flower lived shortly being unable to completely feel the warmth of the sun. By the end of every love story, that flower just withers unexpectedly and you just can’t revive it even if you want to. Sometimes, loving a person leaves a scar on your heart but your heart can’t choose someone to love. It just hits you unexpectedly but even if you’ll get hurt you can’t deny the fact that you’ll be able to love again.