"Probinsyana"

        It seems nostalgic when me a “probinsyana” and my friends talk about where our provinces are.  How the sun bids farewell as the moon and the twinkling stars replace the sky, mountains full of trees and plants that makes it green and how my grandparents and my aunt would smile if we were there, all of that is what I think of when it comes to my province. Usually the word “probinsyana” is linked when you talk about provinces. You call someone a “probinsyana” if she went or lived from a province. I am a proud “probinsyana” because I had experienced a lot of things in our province together with the people whom I care most.

        Back when I was still a baby my parents were busy with their jobs that they couldn't take care of us. Me and my younger sister was given to my aunt and my grandparents so that we’ll be taken care of because they can’t  due to their work. I can still remember that I was once a crybaby and my aunt would tell me that back then whenever I cry my face would be red and even though there were no tears left I’d still cry and shout. Then she told me that there was one time that my father couldn’t handle my tantrum he carried me up and he was like going to throw me out of the window. Well I thank them for their time, patience, effort to raise an extraordinary child like me. All  I can say is that it was a blessing having them by my side and received love that was enough for me to feel loved and important.

        Growing in a province gave me a lot of memories to treasure. I can remember at my young age helping my grandmother buy vetsin for her vegetable soup and how she thanked me for that. I also used to look for coconut shell and collect them to bargain and the coins that I received will be given to m my grandmother and that made her glad. I remember the simple things for survival like cooking with the use of firewood and getting directly the ingredients from nature. I remember the time when I used my barefoot to dig a small burrow for the seeds of the corn and then burry it with soil again, that was my first time planting corn and I felt happy. Even though these things were simple it was fulfilling to because knowing that in a place you can survive and live longer because nature blessed us with the abundance of our basic needs.

        These people and place builds me and molded me for what I have become today. The simple experiences I had when I was staying there was memorable and it hit a great impact to me. Even though life there was plain it made me realize that life can be filled with happiness without doing something complicated, doing simple things can already make you happy even if others would criticize you. Life in the province was quiet but you won’t feel lonely as long as there are people there who embraces you. Being a “probinsyana” is a thing that is essential for someone like me because there is always that place you are welcome to whenever.

The Call

There comes a time when people cry and regret the things they haven’t said and done when the person was still there with them. You’ll wonder what if you did those and said those when you had the chance, before it’s too late. It is then you’ll realize that time isn’t forever and everyone has their own limit. It is then you’ll realize that time is so precious that you have to spend it wisely. And you’ll realize that we can’t go back to those times in the past.

I knew that my mother was dead but I didn’t react because it wasn’t sinking in my head. It was too unexpected and I definitely couldn’t believe it. My mother is still here and she’s not gone, maybe she went somewhere else. But then my relatives were crying and now it hit me so hard that the thought of my mother can’t be with us finally came through me. My eyes were leaking with tears and it won’t stop and I just can’t stand the fact that I don’t have my mother anymore.

The hot air filling the room woke me up. I felt there were tears in the corner of my eyes and opened my eyes and darkness was there I checked my phone and it was already 10 o’ clock in the morning. A glimpse of light greeted me as I opened the door. Thank God it was just a dream even though it felt so surreal. I rushed down the stairs and dialed the telephone number of my mother’s office.

As our short conversation was coming to an end I knew in my mind that I have to say it before it’s too late and I finally said, “I love you Ma.” Knowing it was just a dream definitely made me realize that we must treasure the time we have to let our loved ones feel we love them and we care for them. As much as possible we have to do it every day so that we can feel the happiness because it made them happy. Time was given by God because each of us has to use it to create memories that would last forever. Living a life without any regrets would let you think that you can go because your duties are done. 

Gal Pals

Suddenly found a quote on Pinterest saying, “We weren’t sisters at birth but we knew from the start we were put on this earth to be sisters at heart.” Nothing compares to these girls from the things I am proud having of.  They were those kind of chums who were like precious gems that you would keep forever. I wish that laughter, sadness, craziness and happiness would strike us once again to bring back the old times when we were still together. I’m not saying that we’re torn apart now but sad to say we attend to different schools now and that’s what keeping us apart.

Let me introduce my gorgeous best of friends. The girl on the left is Chrislee Torres next to her is Fely Enriquez  and on the right is Roushayne Agravante. Even though the distance keeps us apart we still have time for each other like hanging out sometimes when everyone’s free. But one of us don’t really have her free time because Fely’s living in the other dimension just kidding, to be honest she’s in Manila and we miss her a lot though. I find myself being comfortable with them and I can show the real me.

I’m going to describe Chrislee as a girl who’s strong on the outside but fragile on the inside, she tends to show herself as an independent young woman who faces her circumstances seriously but sometimes not. We call her Shayne, it’s her nickname and she’s a fighter she’s also vigorous in terms of dealing her problems but sometimes it’s burden is too heavy that she cries and seeks out for our help. Fely’s a girl who can be crazy sometimes but not literally because sometimes she can be fun, angry, annoyed, irritated, cute, full of jolliness and etc. But when you get to know her you’d understand what she feels and how you’d react on how she sees things in her own perspective. My group of gals have different personalities which makes them standout.

I can’t forget the moments we shared, the fun and laughter I experienced. My world with them is like a rollercoaster, I enjoy the ride of life when you’re not alone. Making me feel I’m not lonely in this world and that is because they’re beside you in sickness and in health, in sadness and joy, in pain and in sorrow. In this world nowadays it’s hard to find things that are real because it’s getting rare. The value of friendship is priceless that even the richest man who lives can’t afford it. There are things in life only you can have, only you can find and only you can keep.

The memories we share I won’t ever forget. These past episodes of us keeps us being connected together as one and as an individual. Life might give us the greatest challenge to test our friendship and I’d truly hope that we could overcome this together without one of us letting go from one’s hand. I am proud to say that these unbiological sisters of mine are truly the best of all and that I thank God for giving them. I’d be treasuring the people I love and keep them warm in my heart.

Each To Their Own

    I think it would please some of you to know why I titled this blog 'Each To Their Own'. Well basically because it would make someone wonder and would let them pause and think who and what they are as an individual. 'Each To Their Own' because everyone is unique the way they are and each of us likes different things that basically would tell how special we are. I want to catch the attention of everyone that would read and hopefully would continue to read my posts. Because in that way they would know the episodes of my life. And the experiences, insights and etc. that I would like tell so that I can share my own personal stories to everyone. That they may also learn from these experiences and plus they'd get to know me more.